At what point did I lose my mind, and will it come back if I call?

30 04 2008

Weather: High: 59 degrees & mostly sunny.

Still a little on the chilly side today. Was in the low 30s when I left for work. Brrrr!

Train was 20 minutes late getting in, due to a medical problem with a passenger who needed to be taken away by EMTs. So not exactly auspicious start to day.

AM working on Month end reports and trying to get the monthly Web Updates done for the company Intranet (Involves a bit of photoshopping graphics and some actual code jockeying.)

Bri is replacing our Garage Door today. Our old one was sticking halfway up & down, due to grotty old metal wheels and the door itself was starting to disintegrate. Menards had a sale, so now we can has shiny new door! Just hoping he doesn’t injure himself doing it. ::worries::

Writing is going apace, though I seemed to have stalled out on the scene I’m working on for Carrion Dreams. I have some major polishing to do today on Dark of the Mirror, and I may be pulling All Things Fanged & Furry out of the garage for a revamp.  Yeah. I like to make things impossibly complicated for myself these days. Sigh.

Did my abs work out this morning. Funny thing, last night I went to sit up in bed to turn over and COULDN’T. My abs just went, “Oh I don’t fucking think so! ” and seized on me. SO Brian walks in on me acting like a turtle flipped on it’s back. Sigh. REALLY need to get back in shape. Corsets to fit into and husband’s to seduce and all that. 😉

So Bri and I have decided for reals that we’re moving to the Pacific Northwest. We are going to take a trip up there sometime late summer/ early fall to scout out some areas and see where we’re gonna settle. (We know it will be near either Portland, OR  Seattle, WA) We know it’s expensive to live up there, but the climate and culture there is closer to our ideal than it is here in NW Indiana. We’re living in an industrial area with crap air & water, surrounded by gang bangers, rednecks and the flotsam & jetsam remaining after the collapse of the steel mills. It’s not our scene. And definitely not someplace I plan on raising kids. We’ll see where we specifically land, and whether we’ll buy a house or build.  (Either way, we’re going old style Victorian and green (environmental friendly, not color)) .

Am slowly drifting back into my Goth mode again. It comes and goes, like a black tide, ebbing and flowing in my life, bringing the blessed comforting dark with it.  (How’ s that for a bit of gothy posturing–WOOT!) Dyed my hair dark again, and have been stalking the Manic Panic page trying to decide on an accent color. Thinking either After Midnight Blue or Ultra Violet Purple.

I’m finding it scary how fast this year is going by. Bri and I have at least been making headway getting the house prepared for sale, and we have a ton of events coming up, so the year is only going to fly by faster. SIGH. I’m not getting any younger either.

Let’s do the daily vid!

From the vaults:
The Bolshoi
— A Way.

Criminally underrated band. Really loved the lead singer Trevor.

Radiohead – Street Spirit

Arguably my favorite Radiohead video, eclipsing “Just” by a hair. This song still gives me chills EVERY time.

On a side note, here’s a partial quote from Thom Yorke about the song…funny how I already knew this without reading this first.

Street Spirit is our purest song, but I didn’t write it. It wrote itself. We were just its messengers; its biological catalysts. Its core is a complete mystery to me, and, you know, I wouldn’t ever try to write something that hopeless. All of our saddest songs have somewhere in them at least a glimmer of resolve. Street Spirit has no resolve. It is the dark tunnel without the light at the end. It represents all tragic emotion that is so hurtful that the sound of that melody is its only definition. …

Our fans are braver than I to let that song penetrate them, or maybe they don’t realise what they’re listening to. They don’t realise that Street Spirit is about staring the fucking devil right in the eyes, and knowing, no matter what the hell you do, he’ll get the last laugh. And it’s real, and true. The devil really will get the last laugh in all cases without exception, and if I let myself think about that too long, I’d crack.

Heh. No wonder I love it so much. There’s that soul deep flirting with darkness that I indulge in way too much lately.

Music: Comalies by Lacuna Coil





Spring…seems to have left the building…

29 04 2008

Weather: high — 49 degrees (!!!) and partly sunny. (It’s colder than a witch’s left….::looks down:: well YOU KNOW!)

So…wee bit chilly round Chi-Town way today. Walk to the office was a treat. But I have coffee and homemade chocolate chip Writer’s Block bread to warm me back up.

Apache seems to be doing well. The vet has me keeping an eye on on her for the short term, but she seems to be back to her old self.

I’m so frikkin tired today. Eyes are watering constantly which does not make for happy eyes.

Okay, confession time.  Ready? ::deep breath::

I’m a huge “Twilight” fan. Yes I know the books are brain candy for teens. Yes I know they’re hardly literary classics. But they’re like crack. And I honestly cannot wait for the damn movie to come out this December.  I mean SRSLY. I’ve been having dreams about the characters.
I know I’m usually pretty obsessive about vampire related stuff (Remember my feverish refreshing of the YouTube of Mick’s turning on Moonlight? Yeah. OBSESSIVE).  It’s an obsession I’ve had since I was very little. I used to sneak out of my room when I was supposed to be napping at age 3 and surreptitiously watch Dark Shadows from the doorway of my mum’s sitting room. She knew I was there and would “Discover” me if things got too scary, but for the most part she let me watch. My vampire love was born early. I have a huge collection of vampire related books, movies and thematically related music. Hell, I’m even writing a Vampire novel as we speak! Fell sideways into the Goth subculture in my teens as well.

So why the lengthy ramble? Because I think the one thing that Stephenie Meyers books have that has captured my attention is she put a new bit of twist on the mythology. Her vampires don’t have fangs, just very sharp teeth, which are coated with venom. To turn a human you have to put them through days of sheer burning agony. She’s taken the pleasure of the Turning and, if you’ll excuse the expression, turned it on its ear.
Vampire mythology is an interesting area to write fiction in since there is no definitive canon and probably has the most vicious arguments raised over what a vampire is supposed to look like, act like and a host of other sundry minutiae. There have been so many variations written, some to good effect, some not so much. We have romantic vampires, vicious vampires, animalistic vampires, fangless vampires, vampires who can walk in the sun…the list goes on and on. It’s almost impossible to find a creative twist on the vampire mythos that hasn’t been done into the ground already, or without going so far off the grid, your vampire resembles nothing that can be CALLED a vampire. SIGH. And it should be noted that Werewolves have a similar dilemma.

Anyway. enough with the rambling for the day. Have month end reports lurking like the smoke monster behind my monitors, just waiting to leap on me when my attention is diverted…should go deal with that! Also have some writing to do today.

OH!  forgot to mention I started my workout regimen yesterday and have sore abs as a result. Gonna keep up with it though, so hopefully I can look decent for the wedding in June.

Daily Vid post:

This song has been stuck in my head for the past few days…and the vid is just a neat visual mindf*ck. So without further ado –more homeboys from Chicago:

ChevelleVitamin R (Leading us Along)

and just for S & Gs, (G being GOTH) Heres’ a Peter Murphy vid for y’all//

Peter MurphyCuts you Up





Where in I ramble on at length about the weekend…

28 04 2008

Weather: all weekend- cooler and overcast
Today: High-43 degrees (alas, Spring, we hardly knew ye) and RAIN with possible SNOW!

Weekend was kind of a blur actually!

Friday night was a TV cavalcade . All shows were awesome, though I admit to scouring for the Turning scene in Moonlight on You Tube and may have watched it a couple…..hundred times… WOT? SHUT UP! I can’t help it if I have a weakness for slashy vampire scenes!!

Saturday was a cleaning/errand running kinda day. We spent the evening with our friends Tom and Lisa and a slew of other people celebrating Tom’s 38th  Birthday (I may have aged him a year in an earlier post. ) TOm dj’d and played a bunch of fantastic mash-ups. Good evening all around.  May have had a few too many drinks, but I remembered to take the cocktail when I got home (2 ibuprofen, 1 vitamin B Complex and a full glass of water.) and thus had no hangover. WOO!

Sunday was quiet. Had breakfast, read the paper, scoured the kitchen top to bottom and cleaned out the two humidifiers to put them away until next year. That pretty much sucked up the majority of my day. And no. Was made of FALE on the writing front. I’ll get some done today, hopefully.

Today? Already been too busy! Was up at 6 and worked out. Abs of Tofu needed some shoring up. Then had to take Apache to the vet and get her stitches removed. While she wasn’t pleased at the process, she seems deliriously happy about not having to wear the collar anymore.  I’m hoping we’ve seen the last of the cancer for a while at least. After a quick drop home, Bri hauled my ass off to the train so I could at least get SOME work done today. My boss is teaching classes all week, so that leaves me  to man the phones and such. That and add in month end reports, and I’ll be a busy little miss boo this week.

Music reccie for today!

Gutter Twins- Saturnalia.
Gutter Twins -Saturnalia
Formed in 2003 by Mark Lanegan (Screaming Trees) & Greg Dulli (Afghan Whigs),this collaboration is the best of both their talents combined. Mark’s growly baritone and Greg’s sinuous tenor are well matched, their harmonies resonant. The music I could only describe as Radiohead crossed with Queens of the Stone Age, layered with a Sisters of Mercy gloss. The songs vary between blues, electronica and hard rock. AMAZING songs. And unexpected melodies matched with dark, primal lyrics. I had this album on constant repeat this weekend. Here’s a taster from YouTube….

There isn’t a bad track on the whole damn album. SERIOUSLY. If you’re a fan of dark bluesy music or electronica with a bit of bite, this is the album for you.

I think I’ll wander back over to YouTube and re-watch that Turning scene again…

DON’T JUDGE ME!!





Woot! End of the Work Week! I SURVIVED!!!

25 04 2008

Weather: High- 75 degrees (gah!) and SEVERE thunderstorms this afternoon & evening. (WOO!) ETA: It’s actually hit 82 today and HUMID. GAH!!

SO glad it’s Friday! Work is just a parade of tedium and boredom. Hopefully this malaise will lift soon. SIGH.

Getting Apache’s stitches out on Monday and FINALLY getting her collar off. Poor girl looks like she’s getting depressed having what amounts to a blue clown collar around her neck. She can’t scritch herself proper, and that’s making her very pissy.

Totally forgot one of the brokers is taking me out for lunch today. Actually looking forward to a nice meal. 🙂 ETA: Nevermind. We’re postponing until the weather gets better (It’s pouring in buckets on and off outside right now!)

Got a ton of stuff planned for the weekend. Our friend Tom is having a party for his 39th Birthday and will be a raucous get together because, hello? BIKERS! Need to get some writing done and the house is in DIRE need of cleaning. So we’ll probably be running around like crazy people all weekend.

Just a side note, and for you what cares–no SPOILERS_- BUt LOST last night? WTF? I mean srsly! W.T.F.!!!! High UNEXPECTED body count and a crapload of revelations and Action!Ben?? Great Bast I thought I was gonna have a seizure by the end of the eppy! Nice to see it back on stride again though! Tonight with the GeekGasm line up–can’t complain! Looking forward to jumping back into the Moonlight bloodpool! (Missed my Josef & Mick banter!)

Daily Vid post…

Lessee…How about a twofer? Editors & Old Skool U2! A nice anthem combo for ye!

Editors — Racing Rats. (My fave song by them at the mo)

U2 -Out of Control (From Belfast in 1981) Vid quality is only okay, but nice rip roaring version here.

That’s it for today y’all. Have a fantastic weekend!

Music: “Discipline” by NIN (For like the thousandth time today!)





Thursday musings and a bit of Squee!

24 04 2008

Weather: High- 75 degrees with thunderstorms later. (They better deliver this time!)

It’s been a bit of a meh week so far. Work is holding absolutely no interest for me. Granted I’m getting my work done, but it’s like pulling teeth.

Been really thinking about how I’m spending my time and I’m beginning to see that the Intrawebs are sucking a little more time than is really necessary. I think I’m gonna start cutting back on my evening and weekend online activities. I’m spending too much time with the LapTard on while watching telly, refreshing pages for some nugget of entertaining news or post to respond to. Not really a life there, innit?

Got some more written for “Carrion Dreams” though it needs transcribing . Trying to stick to my “250 a workday, 500 a weekend day” wordcount.

Oh and the squee? Well tonight there’s not only a NEW LOST EP on but a new SUPERNATURAL ep as well! Add on the cavalcade of new eps of Sarah Jane Adventures, Doctor Who, BSG, & Moonlight tomorrow night and I am one happy geek girl. 🙂

Good news as well. An old co-worker of Brian’s has given him a freelance lead, so hopefully this one will pan out. ::crosses fingers::

VId for today? How about a Kill Hannah video. Haven’t been promoting the hometown love here. So from Chicago and glam goth as they come…

Kill Hannah — Lips like Morphine.





Sorry! Was …kidnapped by Penguins…

23 04 2008

Weather: Saturday-Tuesday –Mostly Sunny and 70s.
Today: High- 69 degrees & Sunny

Sorry haven’t been keeping up with the posting, but there really hasn’t been much to talk about.

Yesterday was a bit of FALE, however. Had to go to the Dentist and get a pre-crown file down done on one of my teeth and two fillings in my wisdom teeth.  Yikes. About 12 shots of novacaine and today I feel like someone socked me in the jaw with a 2 x 4!

On a happier note, I just found out that Amazon has the ENTIRE series of Witchblade for pre-order. SO MINE!

Video for today…From conversations over at Zee Shortwave Dahlia board..(Which ya’ll should come join! ) Heres a video by the criminally underrated Sunshine Blind (The only vid I think they did, actually)

And to give it some Goth Cred:

Oooh!! BabyBats rejoice! Tis a Bauhaus Vid!

Music: “Failure to Thrive” by Faith & the Muse





Whole Lotta Shaking going on…..

18 04 2008

Weather: High–73 degrees (!!!) and cloudy w/showers late + OMGWTF EARTHQUAKE!

Yep, we had an earthquake. Not exactly in our backyard, but still. 5.2 on the richter scale and near Mt. Carmel in Illinois (About 300 miles south of Chicago). Still, it was felt by us in Northwest Indiana . Well….by people who were awake, apparently, since Bri and I slept through it. :facepalm:

Just for S&G’s I heard this song on my i-Pod this morning and suddenly remembered how much I loved this song. SO here without further ado I give you: THE BUZZCOCKS!!!! (Thunder of Hearts)

And for you Jack— a Beekeepers Video.